Lee-Ane Keegan

I have an addiction to food. I am an compulsive overeater.

I have sought help from many places for very many years including the areas of self development and spirituality. Whilst writing out my thoughts in order to try and make sense of them I finally recognised that there was a voice in my head which was completely separate from "me".
The more I observed it the more I realised that I had no control over it. I likened it to an Alien that had taken over my body!

Whilst meditating I have always just tried to push away the rising thoughts that come and paid little attention to them. By actually observing them without listening to the content, I have concluded that this inner voice Alien doesn't have a lot that's interesting to say, primarily because it's not actually 'me'. THIS WAS A MAJOR EVENT. Finally I can choose not to listen. The things it says are nearly always negative. This Alien has taken me down the path of depression and self depreciation for so much of my life. Why didn't any one tell me that there is a choice! (Next realisation : all the people around me don't know about this)

As I write this I am now wondering if I can communicate with this Alien and change some of it's opinions??

Any way, these thoughts rang a bell with what I had read about in my vague searches about Buddhism. I used to live close to Nollamara and had previously seen this website. Everything I read and listened to here showed me that people here seemed to understand the Alien in their head. Last night I attended and joined. Sitting in the hall was an amazing feeling (no not the heat, but that was amazing too lol ) I hope that eventually I will come to meet and know some of the people in this big Family. I feel like an outsider at the moment who has just begun to understand what so many have probably known all their lives.

There is an enormous sense of relief that I have finally found the Path I've always looked for.